I was so happy about staying here another year, and I still am, but now I find my sister is moving back to Grand Rapids with Josh and then nearly all my family will be close to each other and Grand Rapids is where so many other friends live and all I can think of now is wow how great would it be if I could move to GR and get a cool job and an apartment and be able to see Kate and the baby and Josh and so many friends from Lssu like Jill and friends from home as well who live down there and now i am discontent again. God please deliver me from my own waffling nature.
Sometimes I hate myself.